Hi, my name is Taufeeek!

2010-06-13T15:11:00.001+08:00

good riddance and goodbye.

the 1st blog ever.

2010-06-08T20:48:00.004+08:00

this was my 1st blog. the one i used to rant about everything a secondary school kid would rant about.

but first of all, what are the things a secondary school student would rant about?

1) puppy love.

smirking huh? not so fast. every secondary school teenager has gone through this period. its already embarrassing to recall the things you've done in secondary school all for your 'love', yet recounting the tale to somebody else. you would spend your money on valentines day, for that 'love' of yours. buying gifts, etc. and the success rate of you getting into a relationship = x %

x = define yourself.

2) stress (with regards to school, family, relationship (not again -.-) )

i realized teenagers love to complain how unfair their life can be, or how unfair is life towards them. in actual fact, the things that are making most teenagers unhappy are super trivial. But we do realize, as we grow up, as boys become men in serving national service, there are greater problems that exist in this world. problems that could pre-determine your destiny. problems that could shape your life for the next 20-30 years.

whatever we do now, we will be accountable for what happens 20-30 years later. to think we were depressed over some girl/guy who didn't like us (-.-), or why our parents were so strict on us, or feeling sian about school, wanting to join the workforce.

talking about school, i miss school.

3) etc.

i can go on & on, but i'm sure everybody has a different teenage experience. it may be sweet, may be bitter. but every single one's unique. and to say farewell to teenage-hood, some throw a birthday party at a chalet/clubhouse. Some prefer a more intimate celebration, with a few close friends and parents.

As i said, everybody has a different take on everything. and so far, for the past 21 years, it has been an eye-opener for me, especially in recent years. its an education experience a classroom cannot offer, but its these kinda experiences that teach you the hard way, via pain and experience.

as i'm about to embark a new chapter in my life, i pray for the best.

p.s: less emo, more content, more colors from now on!

2009-09-08T23:16:00.002+08:00

in consideration to mich's comment,

8th September 2009 | 2317 Hours

finally went for BTT today, and i passed! actually, everything was a breeze, except for the last 5 mins when the guy beside me acted pro, look confident, didn't double check his answer and ended the test with a big FAIL on his screen.

it made me chua sai for 5 bloody mins, and another minute to pluck up the courage to end the test. book FTT at the end of the month, i'm chionging for all the theory lessons asap since my brain's still functioning well. anyways, for those who have livejournal, add me there instead. i realised i update my livejournal more often than here..

it has to end.

2009-08-04T00:15:00.002+08:00

i've gotta stop whining and start winning.

this is how i really feel when i've gotta juggle between a levels and NS.

please please please!

2009-06-06T00:03:00.002+08:00

the question is,

a desktop upgrade or a new laptop?

*prays for singtel or starhub to come up with fantastic re-contract deals for IT Show*

i came up with this quote, part 1.

2009-05-31T18:59:00.002+08:00

the bestest birthday present you can ever get is something you'll probably won't or NEVER get.

Taufik Sani, wannabe political scientist or mass-communicationist.

kuala lumpur, here i come!

2009-05-25T22:43:00.003+08:00

i'm going to the United game in KL on 18th July 09! WOOHOO!

basically, all my friends HAPPENED to be Liverpool fans who're willing to pay 88 Dollars to watch Reina and Itanje as strikers against a Singapore XI.

Therefore, i'm going there myself via flight and hook up with friends or relatives who happen to go there for the United game also! probably be staying in KL for probably 3 to 2 days, taking the chance to try holidaying myself and doing things at my own pace. never taken a flight by myself, checking in myself and stuff. its gonna be an experience man.

CAN'T WAIT FOR JULY.

good music for recommendation.

2009-05-20T23:32:00.002+08:00

some songs i've recently managed to listen. good stuffs.

Dishwalla - Angels or Devils
Kings of Leon - Use Somebody
Taylor Swift - Tim McGraw

but this one, chop chop confirm must listen to. especially people who love emo music. (emo. meaning coldplay, radiohead emo.)

Spiritualized - Lay it Down Slow

VIVA LA CHAMPIONE

2009-05-19T23:34:00.002+08:00

UNITED's gonna be in KL on 18th July 09, and I HAVE TO BE THERE! its just a 45mins plane ride away!

i seriously can buy consoles solely for rhythm games. you call me nuts now.

2009-05-17T10:16:00.003+08:00

finally today, i get to play my FAVOURITE game again! :D

thats a .. err.. nice name variation? guess not.

2009-05-12T23:23:00.003+08:00

i stumbled upon this photo, which was taken on 31st Aug 08?
i made a reservation for almost 20 over people at Paradiz Centre's Mad Jack's a year ago.

and THIS WAS HOW THEY WROTE MY NAME.

i sound like some Serbian Football Player. Tawfic? lol

same month, different infatuations

2009-05-11T21:21:00.008+08:00

i used to anticipate the month of May to arrive. i always had this infatuation with May since childhood, and i still fancy her, the beautiful month of May.

but how a few years of teenage life could change perspectives, feelings and alter childhood infatuations towards May. its still THE month for me, but it ain't the same anymore.

anyways, last Thursday, 7th May 09, was POP-OH!

i remembered on the first day of NS, i never felt so sian in my life. sitting with people you've probably never seen in your life, and these people are gonna be your friends surviving with you for the next 4 months of your life. the unknown always scares the shit out of me. i was worried,

could i settle in with these new people? would i have a memorable training? or would it be thestart of hell for me? to answer those questions, look at the picture below.

still not convince?

i'm back at where it all started, as a staff assistant. its gonna be the start of a new chapter in these 2 years, but it won't be the same without these guys. we were pes Cs, but we never physically or mentally were. and not forgetting our FI, without him, i don't think our training would be as half as fun as it had been. nice fella, we will definitely not forget him.

oh, i also bought new speakers for my com, its SOOOO GOOOOD, and cheap too!

in addition, i also bought myself an acoustic guitar and taylor swift's album. i'm so so inspired by how she views music and she is so so so so so pretty! go check out her mv, "You belong to me". she played 2 characters, and her brunette character is SO FRICKING HOT, and her being a geeky kinda girl makes her SO SWEET AND PRETTY.

well, the sad thing is, she's 1.8m+ tall, so in terms of height, i already 'got no chance ah..'

i'll probably look like Frodo Baggins if i had the opportunity to stand beside her :|

i'm so inspired by her that i started writing my own songs, it helps you channel your feelings the right way :)

thanks for removing it, tuesday 5th may 09 one:fifteen peeee am.

2009-05-05T13:01:00.004+08:00

"We have removed your video entitled "a tribute to the greatest group of people i've ever been." uploaded at 11:13pm May 1st, 2009. We did this because it appears to contain copyrighted material owned by a third party, such as a video clip or background audio."

oh come on, i used Life in Technicolor ii by Coldplay because i thought it would have been a brilliant song for the video. i mean, it ain't for commercial purposes and i'm not making money out of it what. now everyone's deprived of the preview, and i'm deprived from all the comments i could improvise from.

so right now, i've got to try and self remix some songs, or use more innovative ideas to get the music part fixed.

if you can't rely on others, you've got to rely on yourself. thats how music legends were borned. they were never satisfied with the work of others, so they created something that would satisfy their worlds.

clarke quay, saturday 2nd may 09

2009-05-03T00:42:00.002+08:00

adam, alexis, muz, victor and ying.

its a small group of friends, but it was the time spent together that i wanna highlight. its been so long since i immersed myself in the spirit of camaraderie. when you get even 300 mins of some time together with your friends, you treasure those moments.

you don't get to meet them everyday.
you don't get scolded with them by not doing homework.
you don't get to endure together during PE.
you don't get to bitch with your bffs or whatever during breaks.
you don't get to queue at the nearest macs with them after hours of lectures and tutorials.
you don't get to enjoy bus/mrt rides home with them.

even just now was just a short meet up, the bullet that pierced through my head also knocked some reality into me. i'm no more a student. i'm a young adult now. no more donning the school uniform and looking forward to meeting school mates on weekdays. heck, even when i'm retaking A levels, i'm labelled 'Private Candidate' by SEAB.

that means you're on your own, there's no one taking care of you ANYMORE. you answer for all your failures or successes. even for NS, once you POP-ed, you're alone. there isn't anyone left that would go save your ass. you break it, you pay it.

thats life Taufik. its there for the taking.

camp's no place for a sick man

2009-04-29T16:37:00.002+08:00

37.7 Deg, 38.0 Deg, and they just gave me just 3 days of LIGHT DUTY?

(for your info, light duty means you don't get to rest in your barrack, you have to follow your squad everywhere they go, just that you sit one corner and don't participate in any form of physical activity)

so i just went with the flow, and by the time it was about 4pm, it shot up to 38.7 Deg. Cel. if kenneth didn't ask me go see the med. officer, i'll probably still be in camp shivering my ass off. so they sent me packing to the hospital that night, at about 8.30pm, in an ambulance.

they sent me to NUH, which emergency entrance's looks like a pandemic fortress. and i got quarantined for a boring 3 hours. reached camp at 1am, waited for dawn, dad picked me up and home sweet home. 2 days MC, which means i book-in on SUNDAY! :D

the day i used to loathe

2009-04-26T13:04:00.004+08:00

* oh shit, there's so much homework, how to finish!*

* sian ah, tmr must wake up at 6am*

* walao, weekend like so damn fast, need to book in alrdy. basket.*

these were some of the quotes i used to mutter on sunday mornings, and especially sunday evenings. i loved friday and saturdays, especially friday nights. they give you the false impression that your weekend is gonna be looooong.

so my normal weekend goes something like this,

after book-out, i'll chiong, REALLY chiong home. the first thing i'll do once i reached home would be to stuff all the laundry inside the washing machine, get in started, and bath. followed by munching on really good stuff cooked by mum for dinner. facebookwhoring, msn, blogs, and waiting for nafe to give me the sms for our weekly macdonald's supper.

that supper, we will do a couple of things. firstly, talk about our respective crap happenings at camp, munch on some fatty fast food, and lastly, since we're guys who are really straight people, we'll appreciate the sight of pretty looking ladies. :D sometimes, starbucks would be another alternative to macdonalds. good coffee, good ambiance.

OH SHIT. i've gotta BOOK IN NOW. i will continue my post tomorrow in camp!

oh anyways, this song's titled Mississippi Queen, and it reflects my mood now, CAUSE I'M GOING TO POP ALRDY! YAY.

its a privilage, NOT A RIGHT.

2009-04-20T12:34:00.002+08:00

apparently, this is what they always use to make us 'disciplined'. but honestly, when POP mood comes about, nobody gives a damn. everything becomes a right. and at the end of the day,

LEFT PALMS DOWN. or ALTERNATE LEG SHUFFLE, CHANGE? (this ain't some Zouk manouvre you do on your Saturday Nites.)

oh anyways, i'm in camp right now, to be exact in the library. that explains why i can reprise my role as a cyber-citizen! i seriously cannot WAIT for the end of the week to be here, Monday's already here, leaving me with 4 more days of anticipation. once this week passes by, next week would be a thursday book out and the following week, the day we've been always anticipating for, in fact its the day every NS men anticipates, regardless whether you hold a SAR-21, a Handgun, or err.. Water Hose? no insults to you nafe, haha.

sunday blues for national servicemen

2009-04-19T16:34:00.003+08:00

3 more hours to book in, 3 more weeks to POP.

so after passing law, shooting, scenario based, and swimming tests, what else is there to do for the 134th Intake?

INTENSIVE DRILLS. SLEEP. INTENSIVE DRILLS.

oh come on, it has to be more interesting than this! but sorry, this is the best they can offer. its gonna be a boring week, doing drills drills and more drills. oh man. hopefully time would fly fast, and i would be sitting in front of the computer again blogging about the week's happenings.

faster faster faster!

musically inclined me

2009-04-17T11:37:00.002+08:00

i'm a very musically inclined person, and i really found this song nice. although its in bahasa indonesia, and not everyone would understand, its just my type of song!

i'll post the lyrics later.

25 mins to TGIF!

2009-04-16T23:57:00.003+08:00

every Thursday night, whether i'm in camp or at home, a smile will be sketched on my face. its always thursday nights that brought me respite and relief.

i mean, WHO wouldn't look forward to TGIF? maybe if TGIF was transferable, and you don't really look forward to Fridays,
please transfer your TGIF to Muhammad Taufik bin Sani of IC No. S89*****E.

these past few days i've been at home, i've really been enjoying the company of my mum and dad. its only 3 of us in the family, me, mum and dad. in a 5 room flat. when my dad's working night shift and i'm in camp, my mum's alone at home. sucks to be alone, thats why i am maximizing every minute of this week.

recently, i read a book, titled Chicken Soup for the Singaporean Soul. i remembered this story, about a family who stayed together strong despite the downs they went through. i remembered the author wrote,

"as the days past, as my mum and dad gets older, god is slowly taking them away from me"

and she said about not wanting to regret spending insufficient time with them when the caliing arrives. got me all thinking last week, how true the sentence is.

oh, today was pizzafest!

and the final picture....

as people always say, good things in life are NEVER CHEAP or FREE.

ps. i've already updated my photoblog on livejournal, go take a peek!

my livejournal's being re-incarnated.

2009-04-15T22:41:00.003+08:00

since i've got 2 blogs, i've decided to make my livejournal more inclined towards photo blogging, using snapshots i've taken with my trusty Fujifilm A820.

http://310589.livejournal.com/

today's 14th April, another 7 more months, i'll be sitting somewhere in Pioneer JC, retaking my A levels, in a D0 0r DIE pretext. my results are like, CCS/DD?

that day when i received my results, many sets of emotions came to me. i wasn't particularly sad/disappointed/melacholy or whatever. i definitely wasn't happy and satisfied.

FIRSTLY,
i felt relieved that my math and econs were Cs, because with all the last minute chiong-ing, everyday consultations i had, the jump from a U to a C is remarkable for me. it gave me a set of boosted confidence that with ample practice, starting from NOW, i can nick the As i desired.

SECONDLY,
i knew my physics was going to hunt me down, i didn't study, i seriously neglected that subject. there is nobody or nothing to blame except for myself. i was seriously at fault for the sub pass, and i forcasted the best grade i was going to get would be E. and true enough, i almost nicked it.

GP and History were the ones filled with dissatisfaction. i really REALLY thought i would get double Bs for my H1s, but i guess my essays are not concrete,critical or analytical enough for the Brits. solution? READ MORE. PRACTICE MORE. i wanna get my fricking grades for my languages, i wanna do political science or mass media. pretty please Cambridge?

whatever it is, i can't afford to fail the 2nd time, because i can't afford SIM. i don't want to become a financial burden to my parents. for 20 years i've been living off them, when is it gonna be the moment i stand on my own with minimal support? 25k CASH is way too much, even if they wanna sponsor me. at least using CPF the burden's not very heavy and i can pay them through my working salary in the future. but CASH? not when an economic crisis is imminent.

enthusiasm and determination ain't enough, endurance and will is everything.

aches all over, no thanks to countless laps of swimming

2009-04-14T17:08:00.002+08:00

after savoring an entire plate of spring chicken, without ANY assistance from ANYONE, i realized that the fats were coming, and they were planning to stay and make themselves feel at home for a very loooooooong time.

hence, ACTION had to be taken. and as i didn't bring any running shoes home, swimming seemed a good option. so there goes ME going to the nearest swimming pool at the old CDANS, ready to burn some calories. the laps went by, from 1, it slowly progressed to 10. a mini accomplishment, but with a price to pay. my limbs are aching, and with life in NS getting slacker by the minute, yea.

anyways, that was just now.

just just now, i went to ikea, with my parents, cause my mum wants to find a weighing balance. all the way to tampines ikea. i stay at bloody bukit panjang, which is at the western part of Singapore. thank god for the car.

even ikea agrees its OKAY to change your mind. but indecisiveness is a totally different thing.

playing around with the settings of my camera exposure

enough glasses to open a pub.

the 4 stooges.

homemade glasses.

i always felt that ikea's products are always so art deco quality. if i could have a house of my own right now, i'll probably get 70% of my stuff from ikea. just by immensing myself in their showroom makes me want to stay in there longer.

i went to courts for a while to look at TVs and an Ipod Dock Hifi. really wanna get one that's within budget, but its like 200 dollars min? hmm. maybe not. LOL

i had lunch at Arnold's, and the rest is history.
(pic taken from other sources)

imagine, an entire chicken, fried to it's crisp, and i could still see the oil inside the meat, still cooking the meat.

A LOT OF WORK TO BE DONE TO SHED THE FATS, BOY.

tuesday morning, rain's not falling. guess what song?

2009-04-14T09:40:00.003+08:00

its supposed to be 'sunday morning, rain is falling.' - Maroon 5 (Sunday Morning)

i just woke up again, and i didn't go for a swim for the 2nd day running. damn. i think my body is really acclimatised to rest for 8 solid hours or it won't wake up by itself. i've been having headaches in camp cause of insufficient sleep. so the only way to rectify the problem is not to sleep beyond 12 midnight. as early as 10pm, as late as 12midnight.

i'm determined to swim before i book in tomorrow. and NS now is fucking slack, everyday would be POP drills, morning and evening. with lunch and a 3 hour sleep in between. but from the beginning, it was already quite slack lol. as also mentioned by many of my squadmates, having our FI and OC for our squad is like a combination made in heaven. i've talked about how NS manages to change the lives of Young Singaporeans, and it would be interesting to illustrate my own 4 months of NS experience, but there won't be any photos to further enchance the illustration, they banned camera phones due to some bloody guy from the previous intakes, who went to take rauchy pictures of himself in inappropriate attire. damn cock sia.

anyways, i'm off to Tampines Ikea accompanying my parents for a window shop session soon, and lunch at ARNOLD'S. people who know me well, know well enough that i love chicken!

pictures later!

20 mins to monday

2009-04-12T23:21:00.002+08:00

i'm in a financial dilemma, a recreational dilemma to be exact. the problem is, i wanna splurge on something, like pamper myself once in a while. but the problem is, i don't know should i go long term, short term, a mega pampering, or a mini one?

fickle mindedness is something i've been putting up with since adolescent times, but at the same time, it makes me feel messy, and thats something i've been wanting to change. oh well, they always say "old habits die hard". fine example here.

right now, i've been thinking, if i save 200 dollars a month, by the end of the year, i'll have approximately, $1800 in my bank at the end of the year. ASSUMING i do not touch a single dollar from the 200 dollars/mth.

with that amount of money, i can either

1) go for a good holiday

2) get myself a PS3 and a decent HDTV for my room.

3) driving license

4) an upgraded computer

5) iphone pro

oh maybe, i can go short term and get a good ole' classical guitar for about 100 dollars and start learning to strum some real shit. or go somewhere with the clique for a short holiday in june? oh fuck, so many choices.

money's the root of all evil. i concur, i concur.

not the usual sunday

2009-04-12T14:47:00.003+08:00

on a usual sunday, i would probably be feeling dreadful about booking in, or maybe i'll pray for some miraculous work of God to delay the book in.

but this week, i've got 3 DAYS of block leave till wed. night. i feel like playing some rockband, but nobody's available. either they're in camp, working, or busy enjoying himself in bangkok. sucks man. oh well, i'll get something done.

oh i just came back from some warehouse sale. and boy, my 'female' shopperholic mood came just about time. 59 dollars off the wallet.

i just love those shoes where you can just slip them on without wearing any socks. loafers are hell of a favorite though.

this blog's opened for good, i think?

2009-04-11T10:57:00.003+08:00

the last time i blogged, or poured out my feelings was in January if i wasn't mistaken.

but january was like a love hate relationship kinda thingy. that month tested me, pushed me, and made me learn the word MOVE ON. why?

in the month of January, I and Serene went separate ways after 3.5 years. she had her own reasons to why she wanted to end it, which i never comprehended. nevertheless, the last time i saw her facebook, it seems she has another guy in her life, and it seems she has moved on ever since.

as for me, it took me hours, days, weeks to try and reconcile with my emotions. i wasn't emo-ing, or crying all the time. but the fact that after 3.5 years of ups and downs, watching a concert with her in Kuala Lumpur, or strolling down the beaches of Bintan, its odd to suddenly have this person taken away from your life. but i told myself, time's not gonna wait for me, she ain't coming back, and i still have lots of life to live.

my close friends told me not to reply her sms, or her calls. Their intention is to kick-start my healing, and i really thank them for encouraging me to be brave enough to do so. Without Nafe, along with Vic, deleting her msg. at Bugis Junction's Starbucks, maybe my rehabilitation would never have jumpstarted.

but what made me really stronger in this ordeal was to manage breaking-up and National Service at the same time. You've gotta focus on what you go through every weekday, and at the same time, I was raddled with emo-ness. and i decided to talk about it to my fellow squadmates who were once attached or currently attached, or even unattached people.

It really made me feel you're never alone in this world. it makes you realize that someone in this world has gone through the same predicament as you, its just that they're reluctant to share their experiences with the fear of being mocked at. but once the ball starts rolling, everybody vomits out everything, and from then on, i understand when people say,

"NS changes your life", "NS is fun, it bonds people from different walks of life into a single entity".

its an educational experience that money will never buy.

anyways, you might wonder why i blogged about the scars of my life. if you've visited my blog, it either means you're my friend, or an acquintance. Either way, its good to keep people i know updated of what has happened. i treat every downfall as a lesson, for me to become stronger in the face of new challanges that will continue to haunt us till the day of calling.

and i hope you do to.

2009-01-25T16:11:00.005+08:00

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

2009-01-06T01:06:00.002+08:00

i am back, and in 9 hours time, i am going to be a policeman!

pictures for the trip will be on facebook the next time i use the computer!

2008-12-29T01:39:00.002+08:00

BYE PEOPLE.

I AM GOING ON A ROAD TRIP TO THE BORDER OF THAILAND FOR 1 WEEK!

2008-12-25T00:32:00.003+08:00

rainy day, chilly wind. that's the atmosphere i've been longing for. won't it be great if everyday was like that?

lunch with rusydi, dinner with nafe. its really nice to spend some time with a friend, and just talk over a meal. i hate going clubbing and dance my ass off, but i like spending time in a pub or somewhere private where i can just relax.

and i want my holiday!

2008-12-24T11:22:00.001+08:00

~~i don't know why, but blogging at night gives me the feel! so.. wait till night?~~

2008-12-19T00:42:00.004+08:00

BEFORE.

AFTER.

Abdullah Badawi! it is supposed to reduce human and vehicle traffic flow, NOT TO INCREASE IT!

now everyday at the customs like BALIK KAMPUNG season man.

2008-12-19T00:26:00.003+08:00

this is very random,

but if in Mar, I get results good only for SIM, NIE, ..

I will retake. I am so sick of always having to settle for what i don't really desire.

I've got 2 years of pes C vocation, its a 2nd chance. for years i have been performing way below my potential.

lets rewind back 9 years ago.
PSLE: wanted 247 at least, got 237. desired BP Govt. High, settled for Clementi Town Sec.
O Levels: desired Pioneer JC, settled for Innova JC. lack 1 point.
A Levels: desires NUS. i am not going to bloody settle for anything less.

2008-12-18T00:50:00.001+08:00

LOL.

2008-12-17T01:09:00.004+08:00

it's always great for me to spend time with mum, especially when she's still well and all.

imagine your world without your mum and dad. some hero papaya would come and tell me,

"oh! they don't really affect much of my life. so i don't think its gonna make an impact on me much, and also, i've moved out already!"

its amazing how education rescues one out of poverty,

its even more amazing as it subconsciously 'educates' people to

not dote on their parents any longer!

2008-12-15T01:28:00.002+08:00

this place is known as fico sports hub, and i spent 12 dollars, on 3 hours of futsal. 1 month no football, suddenly today go full force.

so shagged, so shagged.

2008-12-13T01:10:00.004+08:00

since nobody tags when they read, i feel there's no reason for the tagbox to be around.

greetings from the eighty niner,

it's holidays,

i am supposed to feel relaxed.
i am supposed to be enjoying myself somewhere scenic.
i am supposed to appreciate every single minute of my holiday.
i am not supposed to feel wrenched.
i am not supposed to feel sian.
i am not supposed to feel alone.

but why vice-versa's happening?

philosopher's argue money can't buy happiness.

But yet, people never feel happiness when they don't have money.

oxymoron, contradictory, ironic, whatever.

2008-12-11T14:32:00.002+08:00

movie recommendation.

for people who have still do have

1) a sense of humor,
2) who believes in the tagline 'why so serious'
3) who wants to rekindle their childhood but still be an adult.

good movie, but try not to waste $9.50 for this, you can pay less actually :)

2008-12-08T19:38:00.003+08:00

tv series reviewed.

after 4 years, i re-watched Band of Brothers again. this series illustrates not only the hardship and combat these veterans had to face, but i felt it taught me

. soldiers and officers are measly pawns of the higher authority.

. war destroys a man within.

. every man, regardless of race, color and religion, would be camaraderie if segregation according to the above 3 never occurred.

. appreciate your camaraderie before you lose them.

great series, i can re-watch it 5 times and still not get bored.

2008-12-04T23:17:00.002+08:00

cheers from the eighty niner,

jusco tebrau city is one place in JB Singaporeans 'worship', simply because they know that their chances of getting robbed/mugged/raped inside this mall is simply very low.

oh, didn't have time to introduce you to tebrau city.
This is Jusco Tebrau City.

so me, victor and nafe, decided to embark on a mini food crusade that probably would blow the stomachs of small eaters. starting off with, City Square JB.

if you could spot kenny rogers on the 3rd floor, that was where the crusade began.

skipping the shopping moments, we went to tebrau city for starbucks.
followed by groceries frenzy at Jusco,
supposed to cab down to A&W! but the fcuking driver, took maximum advantage of the downpour, slapped a cab fee of 35RM on my face.

i even had time to remarked 'MAHALNYE!' doing what everyone would probably do, i backed off.

decided to have KFC. KFC IS KENTUCKY FRICKING GOOD CHICKEN. especially in Malaysia. the original's chicken meat is so much tenderized as compared to SGs.

(for those people doubting my chicken analysis skills, please do realise that my friends think i am a chicken meat loving freak. so, at an instance the chicken changed its name prior to slaughtering and that CHANGED its meat taste, i would also probably know. so.. yea.)

and we had secret recipe. i had english breakfast tea. nothing secret about its taste. its english tea.
nafe had smarties icecream?

victor had the couch.

and we ended the crusade with dinner at a Taman Sri Tebrau Hawker Centre. superb seafood.

sambal stingray, baby squid, kangkong melayu, butter prawn, satay, rice and sugar cane drinks? 61 RM = 27 Singapore Dollars.
for 3 people to eat. 1 person? 9 dollars.

who needs newton now?

disclaimer: the pics on the blog were not taken by me. hence, these pictures are credited to the netizens of the virtual world.

2008-12-04T00:39:00.003+08:00

just moments ago, i felt Me and Serene are a couple that ain't just any other couple. we're kinda open minded and very unorthodox, not following the 'practical and traditional' way couples carry out their lifestyle.

that's us but people may not conform to our ideas and such.

2008-12-02T20:17:00.003+08:00

cheers from an eighty niner,

words are the most efficient way to get a meaning across.
however, at times where you have to describe a 12 hour event starting at 7pm, and ending at 7am, pictures would do just fine.

this picture sums up the different perspectives of prom go-ers on that night. just love the shot.

And this sums up the prom night experience that has became a fitting finale to every single fella in our cozy cg 0726A. but i promise everyone, this will not be the last of 26A.

LONG LIVE CAMARADERIE!

2008-12-01T14:14:00.004+08:00

greetings from an eighty niner,

This is Hilton Maldives.

Hilton Las Vegas

Hilton Bali

this is Hilton Singapore.

i honestly think the Hilton Chain doesn't give a damn about upgrading their premises in Singapore. all the 3 other franchises have mother nature as their alluring attraction,

what do we have?

LOBSTERS ON FIRE AND ICE. *applause, WOO!*

another 45mins and i have to get my ass moving downstairs for that cab. pictures galore next.

2008-12-01T01:13:00.003+08:00

movie recommendation.

staring nicholson and freeman, this movie gets you thinking on what you really want out of life, and you should never face the adversities of this world alone because there are always people who care for you and want to go through the moments in life with you.

this movie is definitely for someone who wants to run away from all the chihuahua 'oh-i-am-so-bimbo' theatrics.

2008-11-29T06:57:00.003+08:00

greetings from an eighty niner,

you know that feeling where you feel a little lost?

wanting to spend more time with your peers,
wishing you could have another 2 years of college life, minus the mugging.
desiring moments where you don't have to worry about problems.

5 shots just sums up the emos. inside.

2008-11-26T10:31:00.003+08:00

greetings from the eighty niner,

this will be my sanctuary for the next 72 hours. costa sands resort.

yes this is costa sands resort on google, but sadly and unfortunately, this is NOT the costa sands i will be going in the next 72 hours. :(

thats more like it!

doesn't look any similar to the first picture huh. maybe the trees? oh even the trees are different.

2008-11-24T19:24:00.002+08:00

greetings from the eighty niner,

prom night is exactly a week away. and i realized people are starting to bust their balls for this 'exciting' day. some individual on the surface of this planet chose to make Topshop 300 dollars richer for ..

1) long sleeved shirt.
2) a vest
3) a pair of shoes.

three hundred quids for all. i just find it ridiculous.
one can choose to spend 100, and use the remaining 200 to treat oneself to a well deserved holiday!

an update:
went to look around for a nice top to accommodate my prom night ideas, but it was difficult finding something similar to the picture. after contemplation, we decided to go for my other alternative, have a peek.

24th November, 3.30am

2008-11-24T02:22:00.004+08:00

finally,after almost 10 months of missing in actioness, its home sweet home..

with tired eyes and a nasi briyani not eaten. with headphones whispering the melodies of Schindler's List to my eardrums. on the random note, i have fallen for Hermes!

just look at this.

this is my rough idea of Taufik Sani on 1st Dec 08 at Hilton. amaciam?

2008-01-19T11:45:00.001+08:00

i don't know how to say this, but i'll try. i don't see the point of using blogger as a source to reflect over things that has happened.

i think there won't be anymore post for now. goodbye blogger.

2008-01-08T16:53:00.001+08:00

the 2 previous post weren't to garner more tags on board.

me and serene quarreled, we 'broke up'. but we managed to settle the problems that lie between both of us, and we are back together again! i just glad that i didn't break up with a girl i really love so much. seriously, i felt like shit in school after the nite it happened.

anyways guys, thanks for your concern. really appreciate it. it may sound cheesy. but although you guys are no more in school, the fond memories with you fellas are something i won't trade for. they'll always remain inside me as long as i go on.

and ya one more thing, 0723C is now the lucky class to get 0624A's FAVORITE CT.

2008-01-04T00:07:00.001+08:00

i'm about to finish my first video footage, and its dedicated to the woman i love,

Serene.

2008-01-03T21:12:00.001+08:00

its just day one without you.
just day one. but nobody knows what i was feeling.

i struggled during the orientation, especially in the morning.
i don't give a fuck if you have a disfigured face or whatever,
i just want my insecurity to go away.

925 days. thats how long we were together since 20th july 05.
you said that i don't think you're good enough.

that line alone makes my heart prick. i may have been a fool to you. but how can you say that you're not good enough for me?
i know you're not going to call me, and i'm not confident of calling you. i don't know whether you're willing to talk to me anymore.
i don't know whether you're willing to love me anymore after everything i've done.

i didn't want to tell anyone on what happened. but everytime i go to sch, people will definitely ask me how is she and me?
honestly, i didn't know what to answer. i didn't tell anyone i broke up, because i thought we still had a chance,

but after reading your blog post, i think i'm asking for too much to patch everything up and asking for you to accept my apology.

2008-01-03T00:52:00.002+08:00

if only i could turn back time.
i wouldn't be the fault of everything.
i wouldn't be your pain.
i wouldn't be the one that 'thinks' you're not good enough.

2008-01-02T20:26:00.002+08:00

~~i don't think i can blog that often now. at least not for the next few days. i've got end to end stuff of workload and orientation stuffs. looking forward to weekends!~~

2007-12-24T08:22:00.001+08:00

having surroundings as cold as 16 degrees celsius really makes you have a love and hate relationship with your own country's weather.

i really love this place mann. its so peaceful, and you feel as if you're in europe, but with that asian touch. i'm going to miss this place when i head home tomorrow. i guess holidays always have to happen so fast, but school days pass so bloody slow.

oh i forgot to mention, i'm in cameron highlands right now. the winding road to the top is as good as a ferry ride during monsoon season, just like bintan. wanted to post some pics online, but i don't think i can upload my pics, didn't bring camera cable.

waiting for the time for the coach to pick us up from our hotel to the different places here, but i hope i can come back later tonite, use the computer again and talk to her. damn, i miss her like nuts. pictures don't actually work. they don't relieve your stress of missing somebody.

i so hate going home! i wish i could transport her, my friends, my house, and everything else here, except school. until then.

2007-12-20T01:07:00.001+08:00

~~i love to make you laugh Serene Tan Si Ling! :D~~

2007-12-17T01:57:00.001+08:00

after listening to love ballads, i realized how much i missed and love her.

alot.

this song is for you.

2007-12-17T01:13:00.000+08:00

bye bye singapore, hello bintan :)

i hope i don't get whacked there because hady mirza just fcuking tyco-ly won. i would have voted for mike x10000 anywhere anytime.

2007-12-14T20:21:00.000+08:00

omg. i'm so engrossed with love ballads now that i even practice singing them at intervals.

THANKS TO MY DAD la! he went to give me some youtube video that was a short music movie video that was very korean drama, and i am so into such stuffs. :|

2007-12-12T22:53:00.000+08:00

I'M SO TIRED. I FEEL AS IF I NEED TO HIBERNATE FOR 1 MONTH THEN ENOUGH.

if you believed the 2nd line, i think your 10+ years of education has been just a waste of time. hahas. but honestly, i think i was the most tired player on the field. hips were feel pain, hamstring tired, knee heavy.

i felt like a lorry playing football on the field. and this is MUCH THANKS to not having trained by physical self for like 1 mth. doing sit-ups and push-ups DOES NOT HELP YOUR STAMINA.

SO STOP LYING TO YOURSELF TO FIND A QUICK FIX. there isn't one in the first place.

anyways, i realised every training i go to, no matter where, people who are more experienced in the game love to shout at me. and after shouting at me after 1000+ times, i become like some rejuvenated player. i feel after coach shout at me, i remember every single thing he instructed. like punching in into my head. i want to be a coach when i get my licensed. got the passion for it.

after training, went to BPP to finalize the bintan trip with Serene. AND ITS CONFIRMED! although its 2 days 1 nite, i'm sure its going to be fricking fun. vacations with her never is boring. its a different experience when you're going with parents. trip to terengganu canceled, might be going to cameron highlands instead.

bought some food and drinks, took 176 and went to toh guan park to eat dinner with her on the bench. i realized we always prefer to eat in the park packet food. even if there's like proper tables and chairs in the restaurant, Serene loves eating in a park or beside nature. and she hates crowded places. i'm starting to have this tendency to follow her preferences, because it really feels nice and steady, nobody pressuring you to chao. went home, and i'm fricking shagged right now.

MEETING IRRESISTIBLE CHINAMAN TML.

IRRESISTIBLE? RIGHT.

2007-12-08T02:06:00.000+08:00

shopping is really a therapy for me. i'm not sure whether guys love to shop, but i sure did! and after 2 hours of training under shit conditions, mum and dad picked me up frm school and ..

i went to JB yesterday, starting with the always famous checkpoint.

best customs in the world.

journey to my mini shopping spree.

another pic.

the first thing i had to do was to find breakfast. nasi lemak and teh tarik. authentic melayu style.

this was where the spree started.

what the hell is so nice about checkers man?

that's larkin interchange for you.

i realised the giant in malaysia is totally different from s'pore's.

and what's a JB trip without CHEAP PETROL.

cold and gloomy evening. went back home.

these are what i bought for meself.

and lastly, not forgetting for you :)

2007-12-02T21:13:00.000+08:00

is there a feeling you ever felt that you can't explain in words?

2007-12-01T10:37:00.000+08:00

we went to the zoo and we were 1 happy couple :)
that was last week, and i've got so M A N Y things to blog about this holidays. i'm just darn lazy.

ah yes. one more thing, if you happen to read my blog, please tag so i can acknowledge you!

2007-11-26T11:48:00.000+08:00

i know i'm damn lazy to blog because i have to upload so many photos if i want to. but this was the class chalet a few weeks back, to sum it up.

and it was claire's birthday too. just look at her, just like a kid in the middle of a party.

2007-11-19T01:21:00.000+08:00

i just watched finish 2046. stunning,beautiful, capturing.

i realised that in me, i always ask myself, how do i define as a best friend?
a bff? there are many people i know who can easily say,

"you're my BFF!"

damn easy to say it out isn't it? not for me. i just don't understand how can someone call another person a BFF when he/she doesn't even act like one. may be fun to hang out with, but promises are not kept, always delayed with full of excuses or even simple things like bailing you out of trouble.
is that really a bff? or 'bff' due to latest lingos?

honestly, if you were to ask me, i have many friends. but if you were to ask me to select 10 out of the many to really rely my life on,

i would say i can't pick out 10 confidently. but if you're talking about a person i can rely on, a person who, in my definition is a best friend,

that chap would be the person i've known for 6 years, and he's in my featured friends. i know when i'm in trouble, he'll bail me out. and i really feel the same way too.

but please don't get me wrong. i'm just that kinda person who remembers what you did to me. and if its negative, i'll hold a grudge, maybe not obvious, but forever. i can judge whether you're comfortable with me, without even me asking you whether you are. but i'll never force someone to share his/her concerns with me, unless he/she feels comfortable to do so. thats when i know whether how you see what kinda friend am i to you.

2007-11-18T12:39:00.000+08:00

i am so tired, i just want to rest! its my holidays for god's sake!

2007-11-13T10:00:00.000+08:00

i'm off to chalet. will be back on thursday :D

2007-11-12T18:45:00.000+08:00

i'll be back later at night, but something for my readers (for a sec, i felt like some newspaper column fella) to chew on.

thursday 8th Nov 2007. serene and me at good ole' vivocity.

we longed for a vacation. i promised her it will come on my treat :)

movie movie at GV Max. BEE MOVIE.

:)

2007-11-06T10:16:00.000+08:00

suddenly, everyone is getting into a relationship, and the bulk of the conversation is always on relationships.

is college a place where love blossoms? for me to know, for you to find out :)
i didn't find mine in college. i found mine in clementi town secondary school, now in nanyang academy of fine arts doing fashion design :)

no matter how many times tony spots my mistakes and get kinda frustrated, i will keep coming back improving, from training session to training session. strength to strength. last year i gave up my place, this year i'm not going to let it go without a fight mann.

2007-11-03T23:45:00.000+08:00

i don't see the point of blogging cause one can never be true about their feelings when in public.
sometimes, no matter how hard it gets, you have to be the decisive one, even when you have to take full responsibility of a potential failure.

i just hate to sit down and cry. it makes me feel so weak and useless. RAWR.

2007-10-30T00:44:00.000+08:00

some random pictures i found recently on my phone. lol.

2007-10-18T22:35:00.000+08:00

TIRED MAN. soccer drains my energy,

but i love every second of it. even when the coach gives me advice to correct my techniques. :)

and finally! 18th Oct 2007, psp metallic blue came in as a direct replacement for psp black which passed away on the 16th Oct 2007. i'll post a picture soon.

2007-10-15T06:41:00.000+08:00

oh no. i just woke up.
15 missed calls and 2 msg.

and one chatbox full of nudges.
sianz man. supposed to wait for her but in the process of waiting for her, slept with the lights on, computer on, and handphone buzzing like nuts.

2007-10-14T21:43:00.000+08:00

balik kampung!

omg. going back to kampong and celebrating hari raya is SO MUCH MORE BEST than celebrating in urbanized Singapore. since the last few days of ramadhan, i had been anticipating for the 2nd day of Syawal than the main day itself. really felt the aidilfitri oomph there. don't even get me started on the ambiance.

11am
set foot for woodlands causeway, luckily no jam. took the north south expressway to pontian, johor. where my maternal relatives are at. i was so excited, no lesser than a 10 year old kid anticipating aidilfitri.

12.30pm.
reached the place. wow. straits times got a picture of an extended family of 40+ people, move aside man. i just realised my extended family has 200+ people, who don't even look like me!
i mean its hard for me to remember every single one of them. but its easy for them to remember me and my dad.

seriously, a white chap going into a kampong is like asking a RJC student go ITE study for a day, no offense to any parties, but you should get my drift. its was 24hour non stop relatives keep coming in, and i really like my relatives down there, and malaysians in particular.
its not like Singaporean Malays, where to put on a smile cost as expensive as a BMW.

Malaysian Malays are friendly, so much so i think giving attitude is not a phrase in their dictionary. i just love friendly people, its those small things that makes people's days :)

i really went around the entire kampong visiting different people, and let me tell you. the hospitality i received is really really nice. wow. sometimes, i feel ashamed to call myself Singaporean because we do not even consider setting aside abit of time to be abit more courteous which could help someone through a bad day. oh well. singaporean culture.

oh ya. what is aidilfitri without FOOD! the cuisine down there is rather scrumptious. and one of my uncles cooked spaghetti. OF ALL PLACES, kampong got spaghetti. BUT IT WAS FUCKING DELICIOUS. he studied in the US for some time, think he got the skills frm there. but it was damn nice. the gravy was superb. a fine mix of tangyness and the gravy was not too thick, neither too fluid. and one more thing,

when you serve any carbonated drinks, you serve with ice right? or its already chilled. when i went there, not even a SINGLE house served ice. so they just provided glass and bottles and bottles of F&N, unlimited refill, and pour till the brim. it would have been great with ice, but the thing is, if you don't have ice, the owner of the house would have to buy lots of drinks as everyone would fill their glasses till the brim rite? and also,

they will never serve people in cans or paper/plastic cups. its not a nice gesture. i think so too, unless its some buffet or party kinda shit.

omg. i'm starting to miss everyone already. shite mann. anyways, i think if in the future i bring Serene along, she'll love it, but we'll look SO bloody awkward, like got two alien looking people walking in an area where they almost never see other mix blooded race.

dad also said that maybe early nov or end of oct, we'll be going KL and Trenggannu to see beaches facing the south china sea i'm so fricking excited :)

2007-10-05T00:13:00.001+08:00

i took like 2 hours to get this blog tuned to perfection. it was an old design, even the hosted image on the designer's imageshack account had already expired. so had to do the nitty gritty things,

and i finally, i'm done! exam also done! looking forward to this sartuday!

THE BIG SMILEY. :D

2007-10-03T00:59:00.000+08:00

okayokay. i realised that the 21st September post was making heads spinning and puzzled on the status between me and Serene,

and THIS would clarify everything :)

jet'aime Madame Serene !

2007-10-02T08:32:00.000+08:00

it's been a long while huh?

anyways, tomorrow is the final push. the final lap, the final battle.
whatever you call it.
but the main point is, i want a shot at my a levels. i don't want to just go and surrender myself to some poly. it may be one paper, but this paper makes all the difference in my next 2 years.

in case you don't know, i'm a retainee. i know how does it feel like to see your friends in year 2 while you have to start afresh with people you don't even know whether they are going to stay after march.
i wanted to take the 0732a combi. was turned down, felt disappointed, and opted with reluctance, maths physics econs combi. posted to 0726A.

i didn't know who was in the class. really. everyone was so alien. i was praying hard that i wouldn't get those cck-ians nafe was detesting about as classmates for the next 2 years. there were a few people. first people i saw were this fella called ronald, who i don't know disappeared where. but he left me one good impression of something.

he, without realizing, convinced me to get a N80 phone. until now, its still love at first sight for me and N80. lol.

then jieying, don't have to explain. 26A's experiences with her can last a universe, esp. zul's.

and don't forget the CT. who is way way better than that pcb kns last year. the thought of that pcb makes my eyesight go polarised.

i'll come back tomorrow, and freshen up more details, but for now,

pls leave your note on my new tagboard! :)

2007-09-21T05:30:00.000+08:00

it's just so hard to let go.
i've got to admit within the 2 years, you gave me many reasons to smile.
and the memories we possess,
aids to our cause of everlasting love.

2007-09-16T22:50:00.001+08:00

i went to mich's blog and found this interesting webby. as curious as a cat, i was tempted to type 'NAFE'. and this came out. EVEN THE INTERNET KNOWS NAFE!

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Nafe!

Nafe will often rub up against people to lay his scent and mark his territory.
A bride should wear something old, something new, something borrowed, and Nafe!
New Zealand was the first place to allow Nafe to vote!
Nafe can turn his stomach inside out!
Nafe can use only about ten percent of his brain.
Nafe can sleep with one eye open!
Nafe can give birth ten days after being born, and is born pregnant.
There are roughly 10,000 man-made objects the size of Nafe orbiting the Earth.
In a pinch, the skin from a shark can be used as Nafe.
A lump of Nafe the size of a matchbox can be flattened into a sheet the size of a tennis court.

2007-09-13T05:44:00.000+08:00

finally, its begins. for at least a month.

2007-09-11T05:16:00.000+08:00

shit man. i wasn't supposed to sleep SO BLOODY EARLY.
planned to do math revision for wed's test.
planned to touch up on Econs Essay to present on tuesday.
planned to call her up later.

something must be done to prevent me from falling asleep when i just want to rest on the bed after dinner. hate it la. so many things not done :(

2007-08-31T00:41:00.000+08:00

3rd placed. thats what i got, throwing away the lead, just like that.
sorry fellas. but i promise i'll find my style and correct the mistakes in my vocals, and give you a good and decent performance in the near future :) was feeling kinda down yesterday and today morning, but everyone cheered me up. thanks to everyone. really.

i've realised the songs in my mp3 really brings out the emotions of anyone. :D
that'st just me. and also, tml is teacher's day celeb. ;)

don't be upset or demoralised dear. just remembered what i said during the conversation.

2007-08-20T22:58:00.000+08:00

this was like 1 month ago i think. she made me this pie. after finishing the toppings, then she posed with the pie. lol.

her baking is really good, guess i'm safe in the future :)

yum yum! that's my love :)

2007-08-16T23:44:00.000+08:00

i've watched yoda & palpatine duelled over 100 times on Youtube and i am going to watch it once more. yoda has style man.

anyways, tuesday 12.40 is my audition. not really looking forward to win the competition or anything. just wanna enjoy myself and let the crowd have some fun. umm. i don't have a song to sing, yet.

also, seems Serene's been having fun at NAFA with fashion designing. hmm. is there such a thing as a music degree that specialises in vocal music? lol.

shit i'm hungry. time for some taokaenoi!

2007-08-13T23:48:00.000+08:00

there are many pictures i recently came across that really is either lol, crap or taken by me.
stay tuned.

count-up!

2007-08-09T13:22:00.001+08:00

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2007-08-06T20:41:00.000+08:00

math wasn't a walk in the park, but it was do-able. a morale booster for me, esp. when the summer tests weren't at all considered a success.

anyways, tomorrow ain't going to be as tough as tomorrow, but there'll be history test which i am going to re-study tonight after blogging. things are tough at the moment, 60 days ain't really that much of a time to prepare, but 60 days are better than 6 days, and definitely better than nothing!
i'm feeling scared, as if it's tomorrow. but feeling scared is something good right? at least i'll be prepared for the challange i failed at the end of 2006.

wednesday is lan and pool day. i think i'll be able to stay only for lan, pool maybe cannot. gotta chao by 4 plus, some family dinner at clarke quay. and i noticed something about myself,

i love movies that has many episodes. lord of the rings, star wars and harry potter.
what do these 3 shows have in common? you don't have to be a rocket scientist to figure it out.

2007-07-31T21:50:00.000+08:00

as i dislike calling my teachers with their titles and surnames in front, i definitely won't be doing it on my blog especially.

claire, you can't give up and wash your hands off the class now. even the strongest of fictional characters, lets say harry potter. he was in disarray with dumbledore gone.

once the motivator or the person that coordinates is gone, student morale will drop, and when student morale drops, that's where all mths of work to build up substance within the class will just disappear.

in life, we face challanges. challanges of huge magnitude. but what is life without challanges? as i believed, life would never achieve an equilibrium, regardless of what you do. problems would be endless, but the thing that differentiates between leaders and followers is the ability to handle these problems and solve it step by step.

by now, i believe you have seen every single student, discussing or dissing him or her off. probably, you are feeling demoralised. but i remembered you tell me the more you think of it, the more you are going to get troubled by it, and the more it would appear as a stumbling block.
i come, in this post, as a friend to you, not as a student. cause i personally believe, regardless of status, age or seniority, we have to constantly remind and support each other at times like these.

2007-07-23T22:52:00.000+08:00

another 2 more mths, and i can have my deserving rest. hang in there taufik.

2007-07-23T00:22:00.000+08:00

it's been tiring weekend, i'm dead tired, with the daunting prospect of school tomorrow. but the fact that i get to see my friends in school makes me cast that dreadful thought away.

it's been a while since i had fun with guys, in a lan shop. cstriking was common, but playing half life deathmatch style is something i haven't touched since i was p6. it was like childhood coming back to you.

its always fun to play with your friends. its different when you play online. the satisfaction, the joy is absent. anyways, congrats adam. for copying me :D

20th was indeed a special day afterall.

sunday came and i found myself reading deathly hallows when i was supposed to be fast snoozing. the book is just fantastic. i can imagine every single scene, the shots from the wands flying here and there,

and as of 11.10pm Sunday 22nd July 2007, i finally read the last lines of the entire series that consumed 10 years of my adolescence years. for a 19 year old, its quite amazing to face all kinds of shit being thrown at you, esp. knowing someone is out to kill you, not interested in anyone else. and he has an army to go after you.

seriously, if some 17-19 year old experience this in singapore, he/she would have been found on the mrt track pleading the train goes 90km/h on him/her. oh ya, we went to courts and got a microwave oven, an iron and a printer. finally its seating in my room. its a beauty.

i can feel as if i'm in a daze, like someone just pointed their wand at me and said imperio in my face. its been 18 years and finally taufik gets to use a microwave oven.

2007-07-16T20:16:00.000+08:00

that picture in my previous post was supposed to move!
oh well. got lots of stuff to do. will come back and update soon!

i love you serene :)

2007-07-14T12:56:00.001+08:00

2007-07-13T23:25:00.000+08:00

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Anyway from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up...

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
I just want to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

the words true from my heart to you.
i'll be right beside you dear.

2007-07-04T01:14:00.000+08:00

Your EQ is 153

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

the weird things we do everyday on the internet.

2007-07-02T21:21:00.000+08:00

exactly 9.23pm today, i still feel my holidays are not justified. it feels as if school is robbing me of my life, and when i look at youths from countries that are outside asia,

i see liberation. i see no metal chains clung on to them. my pt. is why are we pushing ourselves so hard, when youth in london or sydney are nevertheless getting their degrees, probably half the stress of what WE get.
as of today, i've got around 3 mths to salvage myself. i don't have a choice, i cannot fail. i must not.

heart and mind is always at worry when i think about what's going to happen within these 3 mths.
this is for real, something i can't lie to myself. this is the time, this is the final chance. this is reality.

2007-06-27T23:11:00.000+08:00

i've got to re-strategise. i've got to reformulate that desire for success in me. endure i must.
for the last chance lies within this coming 6 months.

taufik,
you've got to change.
you've got to believe in yourself.
you've got to unleash that inner strength of yours.
you've got to believe in hard work.

i have a choice. it's in my hands.

it's tme to choose.

2007-06-24T20:17:00.000+08:00

so finally, the 25th of June is finally here tomorrow.
for the past month, i didn't feel a pinch of holiday, or a break. and for 4 days, its going to be exams.

i keep telling myself to hang on, its not easy to try and take all this shit for 3 years, instead of my other friends who are only going through it for 2 years. poly life is really enticing. but a decision was made, passed the crossroads, and now on the journey to my final destination. its bloody difficult, but i must get to the end. i do not have a choice.

i just want to get my certs and fuck off from all the homework lectures and test.

2007-06-19T02:14:00.000+08:00

i suddenly felt like listing all the songs that i really sets the mood for me. my personal favourite.

Il Divo's Si Tu Me Amas
this song is in spanish or italian, but you can feel their sincerity in their voices. it strikes your heart, like venom. a heart melter.

30 Secs to Mars's From Yesterday
what can i say? emo rock. but expect no sentimental value ar.

My Chemical Romance's I Don't Love You
i'm a fan of MCR, and this hit of theirs is so unlike their usual goth rock, which makes it even more special.

Nickleback's Far Away
Chad Kroeger's voice is rough, but the roughness in that song makes you feel so lost if you lost your loved ones.

Linkin Park's latest hit, What I've done
depicts about what's really happening in the world. esp the music video. the intro part when he sings low key sounds really good.

I just love Rivermaya.
all their songs i like. lol.
Sunday Driving, Balisong, 241(my fav. song) and You'll be safe here, i like balisong esp.

Snow Patrol. who can forget them.
some songs include Run, Chasing Cars and Spidey3's Signal Fire.

An indonesian band called Padi. thats one of the only malay bands i listen to. i just hate those rock emo malay songs. too 'jiwang' lah.

KEANE. i've got both their first and 2nd album. no guitarist, but who gives a shit man. they produce good music. bedshaped, nothing in my way and walnut tree from THE OC.

It ends tonight. All American Rejects.

Me and Mrs Jones, the Buble rendition. he has this sexy voice i've been trying to follow since i first heard him in sec2. i needed alot of guts to admit this okay. don't laugh!

Westlife's Flying without wings, one my long time fav.

Green Day and U2, The Saints are coming. nice. another one would be an oldie,
by diana ross. ain't no mountain higher.

there's actually many more, but i'm feeling sleepy.
i'll save the last for JET.
their songs are getting better and better. from pop rock to slow rock. slow rock that made me teary eyed. from look what you've done to are you gonna be my girl to bring it on back!

this song's titled Shine On, which you're actually listening now. it was dedicated to the vocalist and drummer's dad, who passed away when they did this record.

excuse me pls, but i'm really a soft hearted guy, behind this deceivingly chinese outlook.

2007-06-17T03:32:00.000+08:00

totally shagged man!

2007-06-12T01:14:00.000+08:00

it was a blast, although i look like a lobster now.
the heat was prickly hot, sun-burned my upperbody. i feel literally 'hot'.

guys, i can see the bonding within the class is strong. but please study hard for your exams, i want to graduate with you guys. kyris can say half is going to retain. koh might have agreed, claire might have unwillingly agreed that too,

but,
our destiny is always in our hands guys, remember. i believe all of you can do it. put faith in your abilities, and we will do wonders.